No actually it doesnt.
Crappy late thanksgiving.
I've been broken hearted once again. C.I love him more then I can stand but I dont think he loves me. There's another girl and I waited to long to confess I was never really over him. Now he's in to deep and wont hurt her. I feel absolutely fucking crushed. Why the fuck cant I be loved? I try to be positive and upbeat but i keep getting burned. I dont think I can keep doing this. Im not even looking for sex anymore. I just want someone to hold me and make me feel special.
Where is the love?
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Finally free...(almost)
So I changed my cell # yesterday. And J is apparently pestering my gays for the new digits. He has even gone so far as to look up my house number. Of course i didnt answer it and thank god for the generic voicemail greeting with no names in it. I told them to say they dont have my number. S is an idiot and was honest but told him he couldnt give it out. Now J is pestering him for it. In some ways i feel bad that S got dragged into it but in other ways I dont feel bad because if he had just told him what i told him to it would be ok.
More conversations with E in the past few days. I do love that boy. :)
More conversations with E in the past few days. I do love that boy. :)
Monday, November 3, 2008
And it just gets wierder
Im tired of people. Yep I give up on the human race.
I told J i was tired of his shit he needs to leave me alone and stop calling me. He of course is an idiot and doesnt get the message. I've tried being nice and it doesnt work. I've tried being rude and that doesnt work. Im running out of options here. I just dont feel an attraction to him. Simple as that. I thought i would grow to like him but I dont.
S is another moron. He calls and asks for advice, then doesnt follow it. Then he wonders why I get pissed off when he asks for more. My gays are misbehaving and Im displeased. Im tired of being their marriage counciler.
I want a full time job NOW!!! Im tired of my boss and her shit. I need change.
I've been in touch with E recently :D. I saw him walking to the tech building at school but im to chicken shit to ditch my friend on the phone to make my presence known. I texted him and he said he missed me. Then on friday we were texting and he said he'd rather be with me then in school right then. I told him I'd like that. If I see him tomorrow I'll make myself known. :)
Happy late halloween
I told J i was tired of his shit he needs to leave me alone and stop calling me. He of course is an idiot and doesnt get the message. I've tried being nice and it doesnt work. I've tried being rude and that doesnt work. Im running out of options here. I just dont feel an attraction to him. Simple as that. I thought i would grow to like him but I dont.
S is another moron. He calls and asks for advice, then doesnt follow it. Then he wonders why I get pissed off when he asks for more. My gays are misbehaving and Im displeased. Im tired of being their marriage counciler.
I want a full time job NOW!!! Im tired of my boss and her shit. I need change.
I've been in touch with E recently :D. I saw him walking to the tech building at school but im to chicken shit to ditch my friend on the phone to make my presence known. I texted him and he said he missed me. Then on friday we were texting and he said he'd rather be with me then in school right then. I told him I'd like that. If I see him tomorrow I'll make myself known. :)
Happy late halloween
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