"Spend my money on women and wine..."

But i couldn't tell ya where I spent last niiiight.

I turned 21 last week. WOOOOOOOOOT!!! My current drink of craving is cheap wine or white Russians. I'm going to my friends house tomorrow to get trashed!!! Sooooooooo excited!!!

Not a huge celebration on the actual day. My cousin took me to the beach and we got cheap wine for the girls and Budweiser for the boys. And some kind of fruity drink from Captain Morgans. They didn't seem to have as strong of an effect as the wine. I cant remember the ride back home. We got in around 3 am and cooked Alfredo garlic pasta and it was SO good.

I had to drop $260 on books for school today and that's only for 2 of the 4 books i need. This is getting pricey and I'm not sure I can keep going at it. Gonna try to get some financial aid or something. Somethings gotta give soon.

J is now telling people I'm his girlfriend. I don't know how I feel about that. He's alright I guess but I'm not feeling the spark and tingles like I usually do. If i cant get him to slow down a little I'll just change my phone number again and disappear. He doesn't drive and has only been to my house once for like 3 minutes so I could get my alcohol out of my room. It wouldn't be to hard to shake this one.

We'll see...

No such luck

Unfortunately J is still interested. And yet at the same time I hear he's on a gay chatline. Go fuckin figure right? At least Im not letting him get close enough to hurt me. My trust issues are bubbling up to the surface again.

Im currently scrambling to get a fourth class this semester since one of the classes got cancelled. I had to grab an online course because one of the classes that i got dropped from filled up. I think I'll work on that course between my 2 on campus courses. Money is a pain this time around. At least the one online class reduces my gas consumption. Wow who sounds like a tree hugger?

Just got off the phone with T. I wish sooooooooo bad I could be with him. To bad Im stuck in this crap heap called The Cape.

J and Steven can kiss...

...the fattest part of my ass!!!

I FUCKING QUIT!!!

Im moving to a friggin convent and becoming a nun. Thats looking like the only way Im gonna get people to friggin drop this whole thing with J. I cant understand how it is that Steven can run around like a fucking $.50 whore and nobody says anything about it. But heaven forbid I sleep with ONE FUCKING GUY in 2 years and suddenly Im a tramp and we simply must broadcast it across the fucking planet.

I think J might have gotten tired of me blowing him off. Its not like I had a choice. My mom had her gaulbladder out on wednesday and I havent been able to come out and hang. I explained this to him multiple times prior to the surgery date. Yet every friggin day he's asked me to come hang with him. Then I got sick at the hospital with bronchitis or some shit(thanks steven). I feel like shit and just dont feel like going out. Nobody fucking gets it. Out of the 5 of us, Im the only one with a job and a car. None of them give me gas money.

Gaaaaaaaaaah random rants galore....