"Love me, love me, say that you love me..."

EMERGENCY!!!! MY BITTER DISPOSITION MAY BE IN JEOPERDY!!!

Currently I am:
Feeling:conflicted
Listening to: my sniffling nose
Tasting:bubble gum mouth wash(im really just a 6 year old in a 20 year olds body)
Located in: bed

Have finally decided to go with abortion for my English research paper. Severly cliche i would expect but alas my brain isnt working.

Yes the bitterness of me and this blog(that no one reads) is in jeoperdy!!! I have met someone who has the potential to become a boyfriend. His name is T and he's very sweet. I actually smile since having met him. This creates quite a conflict inside me. Here I am this bitter 20 year old. I've spent alot of time working on my bitter and cynical attitude. Making it clear to anyone that knows me that if they even so much as hint that i would be happier with a boyfriend they will need to dodge various odjects that have suddenly gained the ability to fly. I've put up walls to protect my heart and feelings, been looking out for myself. I've run away from things that I think will hurt me. All to make sure I dont get hurt. Now I meet some one and im starting to see just the tiniest of cracks in my walls. I put up patches to try and keep it all together. Keeping him at an arms length is hard when his hugs are so nice.

*dreamy sigh*