"Im working in the spider webs so leave a message and I'll call you back..."

Ok so in reality Im taking a break from my research paper to blog. Hmmm taking a break from home work to do other homework?

Currently:
Feeling: awake
Listening: No Doubt "Sunday Morning"
Tasting: nap mouth (not as gross as morning mouth but still unpleasant)
Located: bed

HOLY BLOG TAGS BATMAN!!! Yes I went back through all my entries and added tags while at work yesterday. I could have used the 5 hours of quiet to work on my paper but i wasnt inspired to do that.

Have been waaaaaaaay to tire the last 2 nights to do marathon cam2cam with T. I actually miss him. I still dont want to let my heart get fully attached incase things dont work out. Blah Im so worried about getting hurt.

Im hopefully going up to Brighton to visit my cousin in her appartment next weekend. Should be loads of find. Got me a bottle of Jack and some weed to bring to the party. Her and her friends do some insane drugs. I stick to weed, booze and strange men. And I dont even smoke weed or have strange men that often. (que comedy drum). Hoping to get more alcohol befor then.

We'll just have to see.

"In my head, its only in my head..."

I NEED MY TIN FOIL HAT!!!

Currently:
Feeling: suspicious
Listening: random song on the radio and manicurist working on her client in the other room
Tasting: mint gum
Located: work

I'm beginning to think that some of the guys I used to date got together and decided to plant a chip in my head so they could tell when I decided they were an ass hole or that I was emotionally down and thus get in touch with me again because they know my heart is easily manipulated. I am of course speaking of E right now. However he isn't the only one I'm weary of.

Let me start from the beginning. Yesterday morning(so long ago right?) I had decided E was an ass hole and I had to accept that he was just going to float in and out of my life whenever he saw fit. My sister told me I should download the song "Who let the dogs out?" to my mp3 because she liked it. I told her I wouldn't until I had time to drive past E's house with it blasting becuase he live's in, and I quote(myself)"fancy house full of fancy stuff in a fancy nieghborhood with his fancy car and I just want to disturb the piece because I think he's an ass hole." I then continued on with my day feeling pretty good that I had let go. Fast forward to about 6:30 last night. He starts texting me. The following is the exchange between us:

E:Hey how r u?
Me: Hey Im doin good how r u?(I suck at staying angry I know)
E: Sicki thhnk(think) my whole body is swore(sore)
(I thought he was drunk after this text but...)
Me: That sucks
(I was at dinner trying to figure out what I owed which is while the following texts are all from him)
E: I cant be leave we did that it was fun sorry I got all sad
(I'm wondering at this point if he has me confused for her)
E: It was my fault
E: U got to admit it was fun
E:I mean idk(he does that when he's nervous about something usually when he texts that to me its because he's worried I'm pissed off at him)
Me: It was sorry I was figuring out how much I owe 4 dinner
E: its ok what was ur fav part?
Me: feelin close to someone for a little while even if it was only one way havent felt that since graduation night
E: Aw who were you with that night? I mean fav thing we did
Me: Grad night I was with the guy from CT and I cant pick just one thing *blush* sorry

Warning: the rest of this gets graphic. If you take objection to SEXUALLY EXPLICIT content please skip the rest of this text

E: it was so great when you let me c** in ur mouth felt so good
Me:Idk what to say lol um happy 2 b of service I guess
E: would u do it again?
Me:despite my better judgement i cant say no to u
E: i could c** all inside?
Me: Inside where? Im not trying to start anything i really dont know
E: mouth
Me: Yes
E: would you swallow it?
Me: Havent I done that already? It would b kinda odd to say i dont after i have
E would you like me too c** in there again?
Me: yes
(then he doesnt text back for a while)
Me: hope you feel better soon
E: TY :]
Me: no problem

I honestly think he has a chip in my head.