Just felt like putting in a fluff entry
Currently:
Feeling: confident that I can move past E
Listening: Lenny Kravits "As long as I'm living" stuck in my head
Tasting: bubble gum mouth wash
Located: next to indent in sinking mattress
I think I'm finally ready to let it go. I think I can handle sitting next to E in English tomorrow and not feeling either very angry or very dirty. I need to just let go. Wish him well and be done. I have T to look forward to this summer. That doesn't mean I'm not gonna make it hurt when E looks at me. I used to have an evil plan to make it visually difficult for him to behave. When I thought he might be interested the plan shifted gears from that to giving him the push to dump the hemorrhoid he's with. Now the plan has once again shifted and focus is on making damn sure he doesn't forget the little he did have with me and making sure he sees what he missed. After I'm satisfied that I have either ruined his head or I get bored then I'll stop. I wish this mind could be used for good over evil sometimes.
At least T thinks my evil thoughts are hot.
Showing posts with label so happy together. Show all posts
Showing posts with label so happy together. Show all posts
Monday, April 14, 2008
"Back in black.."
YA!!!
Currently:
Feeling: loved and happy(a rarity for this blogger)
Listening: T talking to his roomie and him singin
Tasting: extra dark chocolate truffles
Located: STILL sinking mattress
I got my stupid wireless fixed today!!! I FIXED THE INTERNET!!! OK so technically the com cast guy helped me but I was SO there. Now I'm triple tasking. I on the phone with T, typing out a blog entry and on web cam with T. And I'm smiling. That's kinda rare for me. He just asked why my cam was moving so much. Wow and now I'm slipping into that play by play thing. OK stopping now.
I'm not dwelling on E anymore either. But we will see how that pans out on Tuesday. Hoping against hope that I can forget him. Maybe I was dwelling because I couldn't have as much of T as I'm used to. Who knows? And things are looking up as far as going to visit him this summer. Im so excited :)
Here's to brightening up the blog a bit eh?(cough)
Currently:
Feeling: loved and happy(a rarity for this blogger)
Listening: T talking to his roomie and him singin
Tasting: extra dark chocolate truffles
Located: STILL sinking mattress
I got my stupid wireless fixed today!!! I FIXED THE INTERNET!!! OK so technically the com cast guy helped me but I was SO there. Now I'm triple tasking. I on the phone with T, typing out a blog entry and on web cam with T. And I'm smiling. That's kinda rare for me. He just asked why my cam was moving so much. Wow and now I'm slipping into that play by play thing. OK stopping now.
I'm not dwelling on E anymore either. But we will see how that pans out on Tuesday. Hoping against hope that I can forget him. Maybe I was dwelling because I couldn't have as much of T as I'm used to. Who knows? And things are looking up as far as going to visit him this summer. Im so excited :)
Here's to brightening up the blog a bit eh?(cough)
Labels:
addictions,
Artist: ACDC,
E,
maybe i can be loved?,
so happy together,
T
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