Soooooooo sleepy
Currently:
Feeling: sleepy and slightly surprised that its been 6 days since my last entry
Listening: my yawns
Tasting: faint remnants of bubble gum mouth wash
Located: the ever sinking matress
Well the semester is nearly over. Only 6 more classes left of sitting next to E and longing after him. Then it'll be summer and I wont see him. I care about him alot. I guess thats why I can't seem to shake him. Despite that fact that he more likely then not doesnt give a flying fuck about me. I really want to move on. I really do. I guess all I can do is hope that he will be happy. Wish him good luck and then just fade. If things dont work out with T I guess I'll just go back to chasing the scummy guys around this town. That seems to be where I always end up. I start out all floaty and happy because a decent guy payed some attention to me then something doesnt work and I'm left to the rats again. I really hope things to pan out with T. We have a lot more in common then most.
We'll just have to see...
Showing posts with label ADHDs. Show all posts
Showing posts with label ADHDs. Show all posts
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
I feel old
I'm running myself down.
Currently I am:
Feeling: worn out
Listening to: some people talking on the radio
Tasting: mint gum
Located in: work
I'm begining to think the reason I feel as old and worn as I do is because of the people I hang out with. Im very mellow and laid back. For the most part I dont let things get to me. However, the group of people I hang out with is the exact opposite. The majority of my friends are ADD/ADHD. Extremely high strung people who can survive off 15 minutes of sleep a week. Last night I decided to go bowling with Steve and his boyfriend Justin. I didnt realize we would be bowling for 4 hours at a dollar a string. By the end of this i wasnt trying to aim even remotely close to our lane. My arms where on fire and i couldnt see straight. The boys on the other hand where not affected. They loked like they could go for weeks and not be tired.
This isnt the first time I've hung out with ADHDs. No, in fact all 4 boyfriends I've had in my short love life have all been italian ADHDs. I used to be able to keep up with them but lately I've been feeling the strain of not having a normal sleep scheduel. I wonder if i would stil feel like this if i had different friend and normal boyfriends.
If only I could turn back time...
Currently I am:
Feeling: worn out
Listening to: some people talking on the radio
Tasting: mint gum
Located in: work
I'm begining to think the reason I feel as old and worn as I do is because of the people I hang out with. Im very mellow and laid back. For the most part I dont let things get to me. However, the group of people I hang out with is the exact opposite. The majority of my friends are ADD/ADHD. Extremely high strung people who can survive off 15 minutes of sleep a week. Last night I decided to go bowling with Steve and his boyfriend Justin. I didnt realize we would be bowling for 4 hours at a dollar a string. By the end of this i wasnt trying to aim even remotely close to our lane. My arms where on fire and i couldnt see straight. The boys on the other hand where not affected. They loked like they could go for weeks and not be tired.
This isnt the first time I've hung out with ADHDs. No, in fact all 4 boyfriends I've had in my short love life have all been italian ADHDs. I used to be able to keep up with them but lately I've been feeling the strain of not having a normal sleep scheduel. I wonder if i would stil feel like this if i had different friend and normal boyfriends.
If only I could turn back time...
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