Not good

And I ask myself "how the hell do I find these people?"

Currently:
Feeling: both worried and a little upset
Listening to: Deane Carter "Did I shave my legs for this?"
Tasing: onions from my hot dog at lunch
Located: work

My friend Steven ran away from home around March 10. I was in contact with him until about a week and a half ago. Then the phone calls stopped. I sent him a light hearted myspace message a few days ago. I know he read it but he didnt reply. I thought this was odd but kind of let it go. I sent a happy easter text to his fiance/boyfriend/husband/whatever and didnt ger a reply. This morning stevens mom calls me wondering if if i had heard from him. I tell her i havent heard from him and she tells me that the last time he ran off it was with Justin. Apparently when he was with Justin, he wouldn't let steven use the phone and when steven was trying to talk to his mom he would hit him. I tend to believe her because of the lack of communication with steven.

I think E is done talking to me for now. He barely aknowledged me today at school today. I wish I didnt like him like I do. Then I could let the whole thing go. Despite him being attached I still want him. I hate that I'm one of those girls who (secretely) longs for the one she can't have.

If only i could get rid of a few unpleasant feelings...