I feel so hollow.
Currently:
feeling: sad, empty, sick to my fucking stomach
Listening to: O-town
Tasting: salty tears and probably snot
Located: under the covers
I'm turning into the type of person I hate the most. I want to throw up I'm so disgusted with myself. I swore I would never be one of those girls that fell for a guy that she knew had someone. I should have known this would happen. I'm not aloud to be happy for very long. I went over to Es house today to give him the English assignment and take a nap. I figured there might be a bit of play because of how he was acting kinda flirty. I knew he had a girl but thought maybe he was just lonely and wanted someone warm. And my traitorous heart fell hard and fast for him as we got twisted around eachother beneath the sheets. I left feeling all smiley and floaty thinking someone wanted me only to get a text message that he still loves his girl and he's sorry. I am absolutely crushed right now. I cant stop crying because I thought there might be something. I hate myself for letting my heart lead me. I just want to feel something other then heart ache. I know there's T but he's so far away. I'm so screwed up about this whole thing.
I fucking quit!
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