One on one time with instructors!!!
Currently:
Feeling: jittery from caffeine buzz
Listening: people walking by and music in the distance
Tasting: Starbucks dark chocolate peppermint mocha frappucino
Located: The Connector at school
I don't know why but meeting with instructors makes me very jittery. Or maybe its the coffee drink but still neither one is good when coupled with the other. I know that the instructors are here to help and guide us college kids to be successful. I guess this nervousness is more an extention of my public speaking fear. Accept instead of a bunch of people seeing my fuck up and the chance of a few people forgetting the whole thing its just one person and no buffer zone.
So things got a little scarey last night with T last night. I thought for sure I was going to freak out(like i usually do) and push him away. He told me he doesnt go out much anymore because he feels like the odd man out since all his friend have someone to be with. I felt really guilty and started saying we could end this and he could find someone more geographicly desireable. He said if that was meant to be he would have already found some one. That he wanted to keep trying with me.
I really hope his mom lets me stay with them this summer.
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